A moment inside my brain.

“…I need a cigarette..but do I really want one or am I just being weak…
…I don’t know, I’m not even sure what that really means. Being weak, sounds like something you’d see on an infomercial…
…I’m hungry, a hamburger sounds good, maybe some fries too, am I being weak again… i don’t know… this goddamn thought process is broken. So broken.
…I can’t believe work is this busy today… it’s a Thursday…
…I need to check facebook… I haven’t done that in a while… I wonder if anyone has said anything….
…I wonder if I made a mistake with ______… she was awesome… I’m not really sure why I made sure that went south…
…I don’t think you’ll ever know…It’s just not in the cards…I wonder what is in the cards though if that failed…
…I need to call that client back at some point today… I really, really do….
…I need to buy some running shoes…I don’t know a single male my age that doesn’t own running shoes…That’s a little weird…
…I really hate CNN…and yet I sit here day after day watching it… all day long…that can’t be good for my mental health…
…I need to get litter for Jefferson on the way home…It smelled so bad this morning…
…That girl from the sales floor is so hot… but shes kind of older… and has a really bad tribal tattoo on her arm… that’s unfortunate…
…I really wish I’d quit finding lame excuses and just own up to the fact that it’s not her fucking tattoo keeping me from introducing myself….
…I need a cigarette…..”